Writing Emotionally

"We have two kinds of fears. One is a fear that whatever is going on is going to go on forever. It’s just not true -- nothing goes on forever. The other is the fear that, even if it doesn’t go on forever, the pain of whatever is happening will be so terrible we won’t be able to stand it. There is a gut level of truth about this fear. It would be ridiculous to pretend that in our lives, in these physical bodies, which can hurt very much, and in relationships that can hurt very much, there aren’t some very, very painful times. Even so, I think we underestimate ourselves. Terrible as times may be, I believe we can stand them. "Because we become frightened as soon as a difficult mind state blows into the mind, we start to fight with it. We try to change it, or we try to get rid of it. The frenzy of the struggle makes the mind state even more unpleasant. "The familiar image is a children’s cartoon character, like Daffy Duck, walking along freely and suddenly stepping into...

My life now seems to be difficult, often times lost and no direction, aiming but not hitting, no definite meaning, struggles on a daily basis and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out.. What am I doing right? The fact that everything will be allright doesnt make anything allright now... But giving up doesnt make anything better either, not now, not ever.. We are lucky to get second chances, and it is up to us to make things work the second time around... I am blessed to have more chances than I deserve and I will do better than my best this time... I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable...racked with sorrow, and almost desperate, but through it all I now know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.

Suffering is not a Punishment but a Necessity My greatest question has been answered. I have been praying to God to enlighten me with understanding of my faith. I used to wonder if there's really a purgatory or none... and if there is none, then where does the poor souls wait for the judgment day? I'm sure it was mentioned on the revelation about the 1st hell where every souls from there will be judge from the book of life... and those names that were not written will be throw in the 2nd hell where all the souls from the 2nd hell will be burn in the fire and this will be their 2nd death. The name Satan, Hades, and Death were mentioned and I believe that Hades and Death are one but Satan is someone else cause I have also read a passage that God put him in a cage a very long time ago but there's a prophecy that one day he will escape and rule over this world. But it will not last long because God will also throw him in the 2nd hell with Hades who is the ruler of the 1st hel...

Never give up without a fight! ...especially when you are fighting for one thing that would shape your life permanently! We all had that moment where we stand our ground and defending what is ours. We also had that moment where we fight to take back what is ours. Sometimes our reasons were driven by emotions that we can't think logically anymore because of the pain and pride that we felt. Our emotion is our trigger to fight for more. There's nothing wrong in fighting back so long you can draw the line between desperation and determination. No matter how kind a person is, there is always a time in his life where he should fight. Kindness has its limit especially when one strode over your dignity. Or perhaps hurt the one you love. No matter how important is your reason behind, there is always a boundary between things that you can do and the things that mustn’t do. It's all right to have the winner mentality as long as you know how to accept defeat and be modest when you wo...

I thought about this for some time. Why I felt no pain on my break up with my previous partner? there were no struggle, no regrets, just nothingness. In fact it was a happy break up. Months ago, I listened to my friend's story about her painful breakup with her boyfriend of 9 years. I knew the couple since from the start of their relationship. I wasn't expecting them to break up after all they've been through. I was expecting that they would get engage and get married. Infact, I was just waiting for their announcement because the last time we talked, she made a joke about them getting married soon. But that is not the story. This is about her pain and the processed she'd gone through compared to mine from my previous break-up. It was totally the opposite! As her friend, I can say I feel for her, I can relate somehow but only because I'm a woman too with emotions and had other other relationships before. But honestly, I haven't experienced being hurt so muc...

“I’m just saying, when your partner knows to press the right button to make you feel emotional about it, that’s where they would start playing with your mind and when you start to doubt your own perception, you are likely to buy into what they are telling you. Way back then, I couldn’t point it out what was consuming the happiness out of me. I just knew when we were together, there was something odd...a heavy feeling from within that's telling me I shouldn't be here. I'm aware that there's no perfect relationship, but if you had any hesitations, doubts or feel confused, you should consider to rethink about what you really want. It would be a wise decision to trust your instinct cause there are things that our eyes couldn't see but our feelings could tell. Back when he was still courting me, I already felt the pressure of his manipulation. It was a strategy that I failed to realized sooner. It started when I rejected him through a text message. He wasn't sa...

A time came in your life that you really found someone you really like. You fall in love and you convinced yourself that she is the one whom you will marry someday. You've been so gentle to her all the time, spoil her with your love, giving her quality times and making her your best priority. She loves you back so dearly anyway. But the question you should think about is... "For how long will it last?..." how long do you intent to treat her right? ..on ways that she has used to. Has it crossed your mind that perhaps one day you'll get tired for trying so much? And what will happen to both of you if you'll stop your ways? ...the ways that she loves from you that made her love you back. When we fall in love, we are emotionally overwhelmed with feelings towards that someone. We give out the best in us, even sometimes it means sacrificing beyond limit. We just kinda do it no matter what, so long we can express our hearts out. And making so much promises that we h...