It Could Have Been Us But Fate Didn’t Agree

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 When I woke up today, I don’t know how to describe my thoughts and feelings. Though it was only a dream, yet it pierced through my heart. I was happy that you visited me again in the world where you can only possibly be with me. But right after I came to my senses, it aches. My heart aches to face the truth that time has left us, opportunity has run out, and chances is zero. It could have been us but fate didn’t agree.



:-( Sadness filled my morning. My thoughts clouded by emotions and feelings.

I realized that part of me was left in my past waiting and hoping that you’ll find me. And I also realized that it’s more difficult to live realizing that I never really gave up waiting for you. It would have been much easier for me to move on completely with my life if only there is “no you” to look back. It would have been faster for me to face my future if only I wasn’t waiting for that piece of me that was left along with you..

My heart still wonders “what could it have been for us?” “if only”.

-hugebelle: my thoughts, emotions and realizations in life and in love

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