Writing Emotionally

You started out going to mass and hearing the Gospel every Sunday. As you mature, questions begin to arise that raises doubt about your religious practice. You try to look for the answers but you get frustrated every time. You guess you have eaten the apple from the garden of Eden. You have acquired the knowledge of what is right and what is wrong. You begin to see ugly things in the garden-- that garden you saw once as beautiful. The beauties were just illusions, you now find out. But you still have your good heart-- so you think. And you become obligated to make the wrong things right. And you cannot do it in the garden. You did not know that you have become arrogant. You want to make another garden according to your liking. You moved out of the garden. You became an atheist. Your process of becoming a nonbeliever was slow. You started by questioning the fate of Judas, one of the disciples of Jesus. He was so unlucky that he had to play the role of the traitor! Everybody would cond...

There is something about the unknown that naturally evokes very strong emotions. Just like the dark, a lot of people are afraid of it. Essentially because we can't see anything in the dark, thus, what lies in it is unknown. But thru experience, we are able to draw a mental picture of what lies in it. And we believe in that mental picture enough to rid us of the fear that we have experienced in the childhood days. Even before watching a movie, we tend to avoid conversations that will reveal the plot of the movie. We figured, knowing would lessen the fun and the thrill. The boss will always be frightening the first time we encounter him/her. But the more we know the boss, the more we know how to deal with him, and the less frightening he/she becomes. That's why high school life may be the most memorable for many. It is the time when usually we experience all that emotional highs aside from those infatuations. And at the same time, we can't really explain what they are. We j...

"We have two kinds of fears. One is a fear that whatever is going on is going to go on forever. It’s just not true -- nothing goes on forever. The other is the fear that, even if it doesn’t go on forever, the pain of whatever is happening will be so terrible we won’t be able to stand it. There is a gut level of truth about this fear. It would be ridiculous to pretend that in our lives, in these physical bodies, which can hurt very much, and in relationships that can hurt very much, there aren’t some very, very painful times. Even so, I think we underestimate ourselves. Terrible as times may be, I believe we can stand them. "Because we become frightened as soon as a difficult mind state blows into the mind, we start to fight with it. We try to change it, or we try to get rid of it. The frenzy of the struggle makes the mind state even more unpleasant. "The familiar image is a children’s cartoon character, like Daffy Duck, walking along freely and suddenly stepping into...

My life now seems to be difficult, often times lost and no direction, aiming but not hitting, no definite meaning, struggles on a daily basis and yet I'm happy. I can't figure it out.. What am I doing right? The fact that everything will be allright doesnt make anything allright now... But giving up doesnt make anything better either, not now, not ever.. We are lucky to get second chances, and it is up to us to make things work the second time around... I am blessed to have more chances than I deserve and I will do better than my best this time... I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable...racked with sorrow, and almost desperate, but through it all I now know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing.

Suffering is not a Punishment but a Necessity My greatest question has been answered. I have been praying to God to enlighten me with understanding of my faith. I used to wonder if there's really a purgatory or none... and if there is none, then where does the poor souls wait for the judgment day? I'm sure it was mentioned on the revelation about the 1st hell where every souls from there will be judge from the book of life... and those names that were not written will be throw in the 2nd hell where all the souls from the 2nd hell will be burn in the fire and this will be their 2nd death. The name Satan, Hades, and Death were mentioned and I believe that Hades and Death are one but Satan is someone else cause I have also read a passage that God put him in a cage a very long time ago but there's a prophecy that one day he will escape and rule over this world. But it will not last long because God will also throw him in the 2nd hell with Hades who is the ruler of the 1st hel...

Never give up without a fight! ...especially when you are fighting for one thing that would shape your life permanently! We all had that moment where we stand our ground and defending what is ours. We also had that moment where we fight to take back what is ours. Sometimes our reasons were driven by emotions that we can't think logically anymore because of the pain and pride that we felt. Our emotion is our trigger to fight for more. There's nothing wrong in fighting back so long you can draw the line between desperation and determination. No matter how kind a person is, there is always a time in his life where he should fight. Kindness has its limit especially when one strode over your dignity. Or perhaps hurt the one you love. No matter how important is your reason behind, there is always a boundary between things that you can do and the things that mustn’t do. It's all right to have the winner mentality as long as you know how to accept defeat and be modest when you wo...